yawns

i should sleep. i should glue my eyes together and sleep.

tick tock tick tock
sighs. what to do??

first week as 1st year medic student. pretty nicee. for once, i actually appreaciate physics. i see number and figures.
ouhh..i miss maths.

a lot of ym-ing and facebooking.
but life doesnt feel so empty. it's full of wonders and meanings.

am i making sense?? no, i dont think so. *boredddddd*
=.=




sometimes i feel like im losing myself. problems just DROWN you.

and i love you for giving me your eyes, for staying back and watching me shine

i miss my family :[

i miss how we used to all hang out in the living room to talk and joke. i miss how we used to either sit on the sofa or lie on the furry carpet. i miss how we could talk about everything and anything. how we can reminisce about the past. how we can wonder about the future. how we can talk about the wonderful present. how me and ibu would watch and laugh in silent when abah and atiqah start their 'drama'. how abah would always try to jump into conversations without knowing what we're actually talkin about. how syafeeqah would so rajinly urut ibu and abah. how aqil would laugh at everything i say haha. how atiqah would bend her head and scrunch her face when she's wondering about something. how ibu would always be the first one to sleep hihi. how i could just hug her how i want to!

how i could just hug her how i want to. how i could just pull any of them and hug them.
i miss hugs
i miss those moments

i'm tastin salt on my lips..

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wishing them every happiness insyaAllah

emotions extremely unstable

i just spent the whole night watching Armageddon?

something has got to be wrong with me.












i think i'm freaking out.
162 hours?
yikes

sighs

What do you do if you can't say something or don't have the guts to say that thing to someone though you really want to?

On Sunday...

I woke up late ;D

Helped Ibu cooked 3 different dishes, which was an eye-opener ;D;D

Felt a little raya-spirited today so I offered to take down the curtains and urged everyone to go paint our pagar outside that has been left unpainted since last year =.=

Suddenly missed our unofficial cat. Weird. I usually hate that cat. Called out its unofficial name. And it actually came xD

Someone by the same name of that cat called me on the telephone haha.

Played with the cat while talking on the telephone and watching my bro n sis played with paint.

Should've known that I couldn't concentrate on 3 things at once. Did something that must had been unacceptable to that cat. Officially earned a little 'souvenir' from it!

Curses. Hated the cat for a while. Thinking of giving it a little 'makeover'. *evilgrin.paintingshouldbefun.evilgrin*

Decided otherwise. No, not because I accepted my mistake and apologised to the cat. Really, no.

Blamed the whole situation on the person who called me. Hahakk =P

Azan. Ate quickly. Really in need of a shower =D

Terawih at the usual masjid. Felt a little sentimental. Will I get to go to this same masjid for the coming Ramadhans?

Back home. Had fun merepek-repek with bro and sis.
Really am gonna miss them <3

Internet time! Courteously asked bro n sis to leave xD

A friend asked for help. Happily offered it =D

Phone rang. Weird and interesting convo. Wondered if we could still have these types of convo's in the coming years.

AND I won a game of 'o-som'!
Yay me!

note to self

::the curiosity of the mind is such a dangerous thing::

If I'd made little cards & distributed them to everyone..

..then maybe these are what they would've said :)

*the following list are in random order

thanx mun..for helping me out on the first day and the following weeks that were coming. You were one of the 1st friends I'd made in INTEC. N I really like your happy-go-lucky style. Huu eventho ur 'kecik' but ur like a bomb. BOOM!

thanx izzati..for always being so 'semangat' no matter what comes. I really enjoyed listening to ur silly stories, night and day.
xyah lebey2, cu in volgo! haha


thanx ming yan..who's just so cool about everything. Exams or no exams, ur just so cool haha. Thx for helping out in Physics and Russian and all sorts. I think ur just so cool! :D N so humorous. So glad to have known and befriended u. Gudluck in Niznhy!

thanx ida..for being sooo happy, happy, happy! Everytime i see u, no matter how sad or moody i am, i just get soo happy hehe. N u always know when something's wrong, thx for taking such good care of me. Spread the happiness, love!

thanx meera..for being such a great husband?? haha lolz kidding2. bt xtually, the 1st time i saw u, i fell in love with u at once haha =P. You always have something to say and I enjoyed our crappings' together. Looking forward to see u in Volgo again!


thanx nabila(without a 'h')..for listening to my pathetic stories, for understanding how pathetic i can be sometimes haha. I can always relate to you *WINKWINK* keep strong!




thanx azly..for being friendly when i first entered INTEC, for helping out those 1st few days. Glad to have known u n i'll see u in Volgo :)


thanx hanis..for the sarcastic remarks u always made =P. Honestly..i've never met anyone like u.

thanx ikhwan..for simply being u :) hehe

thanx amirul..for helpin' out in Russian, for all those stories and dialogues u let me read. Kat Volgo xbole da uuu :|


thanx reuben..for all those nice chatters. I really, really enjoyed your presence. Next time someone try to pretend to be me again, be sure to tell me k haha


thanx hasnol..for without u, i'm not sure how ikhwan would be hehe. We were never really close in class but i think u are a great guy. n i really enjoyed your presentation in Islamic Studies :D


thanx nazri..for also spreading your happiness. I like the way u laugh, how u always get so jumpy in class heh2. Sorry for not recognizing u as 1 of my classmates the 1st time we met.


thanx shaun..cause i think u are really funny :D and have a great attitude. Haven't gotten to get to know u really well - which is such a shame huu - but wishing u all the best in Nizhny!

thanx amzar..for being so cute haha. With your funny remarks and witty comments, really who could resist this Kelantanese haha ;p


thanx azizi..cause to put it simply, i think you are such a gentleman ;D

thanx prakash..for always having something to say ahakx. Adoii ko memang xleh duduk diam haha but in truth, i really do enjoyed ur presence hehe. Do take care of my dear insyirah in Niznhy.


thanx azri..for being so enjoyable, for those memories =) all the way from that BI presentation up until now ^^

Thankyou Ekaterina Anatolivna! I think you are the best Russian lecturer in the whole wide world! <3

for fellow housemates, some whom I might not see for a long, long timee..

thanx wah..for those late-night chatters haha sbb our housemates suke tido awal kan hehe. Ak ske sikap ko yg rilekkx je huu n ur blog, keep it updated k!

thanx fatin..for being so cute haha. ko mmg comel, ckp lam tefon comel, gelak comel, sume comel huu. ko jgn lupe kt nasyrah yg baek ney tw haha.


thanx insyirah..UUUU CMNE KO LEH WAT AK SYG GLE KT KO?? huu how sad that we won't get to be roomates in russia :( ko mmg pandai berlakon n sentiasa wat ak gelak. Ur just so innocent haha. I really am gonna MISS YOU <3

thanx to all lecturers and staffs and other friends i've not the time to mention in INTEC for those enjoyable and unforgettable moments!

I've only been around 2months++ in INTEC but I feel like I've bonded with ALL OF YOU for life. LOVE YOU! <3

And at the end of each of these little cards, there my name would be signed..

-nasyrahxx-