4.
the scale is broken
sometimes i'm okay, sometimes i'm not
right now i'm not
right now it's a lot
what a weakling
can't even handle a small thing
can't even handle existing
6.
peace disruptor
chaotic calm
my tears in my laughter
i'm irritable right now
the sound at the end of a cordless device
disturbs the serene of my life
if any
13.
they come in bouts
unprovoked, unannounced
it's a mess, i'm a lost cause
whether we meet and whether we don't
whether i'm spiralling around or spiralling down
a one sided grief he doesn't know about
14.
another sleepless night
running thoughts of mine
another curiosity kills the cat
the cat shows it's bedtime
my eyes refuse to close
my mind refuses to shut
done all my do's and don'ts
it's just not working out
15.
dull ache over the left side of my chest
over the one on top of mind of mine
i care much more, pretend it's less
again and again, time over time
will this ache ever go away
my sentimental soul, adamant to stay
17.
friendship grief
no one ever said how bad it hurts
one moment you're friendly
next moment you're not
the quiet becomes loud
the loud becomes a lot
