1.
is my mind clear
and are yours cloudyif i give it up
would you just let me
if i switch off the lights
will the dark be comforting
and if i stop liking
will that make a good ending
2.
purr purr 2 companies
to accompany my melancholy
on my sofa sipping water
my mind sprung out from underwater
a muse brought forth
from my muses, broken
my hand has spoken
what's left is a token
of a feeling questioned
the rhymes of my demons
3.
what if i dream of an ordinary life
nothing too special, nothing too much
just content and to feel enough
not in a race, not in a rush
will that be okay
dreams are dreams and dreams are crushed
if courage is to just keep living, will i be misjudged
4.
what's a year of healing
compared to a lifetime
what's yours is forgiven
mine is yet to arrived
what more could be hidden
alive and in plain sight
what's in a poem
make it make sense in a rhyme
5.
let it go, leave it to the Lord
grieve your sorrow today, hope for a better tomorrow
the loss of a company, oh what a blow
the end is here, i choose to follow
that path that's righteous, take that step and go
parallel strings will lead to nowhere
when i'm here and you're there
cherish the moments, fondle the time
what's yours to keep, what's lost is mine
6.
two's a company, more than two's a fun time
in serene and in beauty, nature is divine
distraction, it might be
whatever works for me
i win and you win
it's the peace we're trying to find within
ourselves, spend the weekend
time is golden, use it as best you can
7.
missed the timing, poem to be written
missed the times we, begged borrowed stolen
i spent all my energy
finally slept like a baby
but what goes before eyes closed
and what goes before eyes open
in my mind the same-old person
in my dreams the same-old burden
8.
is it the social media fasting you do once in a while
haven't seen you on screen for sometime
and by sometime, might have been a few days
by a few days, made me felt all sorts of ways
i might fast too, but i'm not that strong
put up an act, it lasted this long
9.
a flicker of the moon
a flicker of my thoughts
some days i assume
some days thoughts are nought
some days i daydream and overthink
and some days i think of nothing
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some days i'm dormant
some days i might just burst
i will cry face down so they won't see the tears
so they will just disappear
today's just not the day
12.
PMS - pitiful moody self
why am i so sad
why am i so sensitive
when will i feel glad
my tears are decorative
tomorrow couldn't come faster
so that i may feel happy again
13.
joy out of sorrow
hope for tomorrow
the time i borrowed
was not mine to spend for
focus on today
the past has passed and the future awaits
my rhymes match my thoughts
all over, distorted, a hangover galore
14.
a penny for my thoughts
a dollar for my secrets
i'll share them if you ask
i don't want to keep them
got 'em locked in
when i'm trying to burst out
15.
thoughts are consuming
and emotions are high
why is giving up so hard
what else should i try
show me more so i can put out this flame
take the vow, and it will be never again
16.
i'm a hollow
and he fills the void
nothing personal, nothing serious
when i'm whole again
i'll be able to let go
of the memory bank kept closed
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my songs are running out
like my time and my bliss
it is what it is
my will and my desire
to live till the hour
depletes less and less
what a mess
20.
day 20 it's getting nearer
what once was anticipated is now an event feared
crisis of the middle aged
the time just passed as though we were late
you can never chase the seconds that ticked away
you can't change what had happened yesterday
my thoughts, my feelings, my heart of today
is mine to take control of, comes what may
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i'm barely holding on
30.
turn a new leaf
turn a new me
live in the present and let things go
take away sad times
take away sad rhymes
force a smile and enjoy the show
